We finally got word of our new court date. April 6. Yup. That's right. 6 weeks. 42 days. The waiting continues. It seemed that we were so close to getting the girls and now they seem so far away again. It's funny how the excitement in this process easily turns into fear. Our first court date was something to look forward to. This second date is one that we almost wish we didn't know about. So many things can go wrong. The anticipation and anxiety of not knowing if we will get to move forward is heart wrenching.
Finding out about our new court date yesterday was hard. We weren't expecting it to be so far away. Especially since it was the courts fault that our first one was just pushed aside. We thought that they would grant some mercy to our older girls waiting one whole year to join our family! But no, we are just another file, sitting in another pile.
Our hearts are broken for the girls. Do they still know that we are coming for them? Do they think we forgot about them? That's what really cuts me to the core.
Honestly, in times like this it makes me question if we are cut out to do this. I get angry asking God, why?! Why is this taking so long!? Are we not the right family for M and G? Is this EVER going to happen? And then- as usual I am brought to my knees. He knows our hearts, He knows that with Him we are cut out to do this. We will continue to walk in Christ, showing His grace, mercy and love daily. We will continue to push through- drawing nearer to Him. And when that day comes, oh what a day it will be. We will REJOICE in our Lord- and know that only because of Him - we will be a family of 6. I can't wait.
After a day of crying, pigging out on some darn good Thai food, and being just plain mad, I have moved on. On to the next phase of waiting.
We are praying for you girls.....mommy and daddy, gracie and jack sure love you and we can't wait to meet you. Please don't lose HOPE.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
New Court Date
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Oh Becky. My hearts breaks for you waiting time. I can't imagine if I was told ...um...mam...we are sorry to inform you that you are going to be pregnant for 6 more weeks. HELLO!! That just wouldn't work. But have faith the God's timing is absolutely perfect. He is preparing you, just like he prepared you when you were prego with Jack and Gracie.
In the hardships that we have faced over the past year, one of the neatest things to happen is how God has written a story in us. A story that we can now share with people going through similar hardships. I pray that all that you and your family have gone through, will become a beautiful story, that you will be able to comfort others with. Because after all... It's all for Him. Much love to you guys. Tell the family Hi from us.
PS. April 6th is Barron and Peyton's birthday. :-) Now we have another reason to celebrate that day.
I can sense your anxiety and frustration but I'm so glad to hear you have your date.
Praying for all of you.
I know this is so hard. Maybe we will get to travel at the same time.
Hug.
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